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Strange Inspirations

I first started listening to Mötley Crüe when I was about 18 or 19 after finding out about them on Tumblr from people I was following. It didn’t take me very long to get into their music. Within about a year, I had all their albums from the 80’s, had gone to their 2011 concert and read their memoir The Dirt several times (and no I didn’t attend one of their concerts on their The Final Tour due to a number of reasons. I don’t regret it as having seen them once was pretty good. At least I can say that I saw them live).

Not long after that, I bought Nikki Sixx’s The Heroin Diaries which was another eye opener about drug abuse and drug addiction (I had read Slash’s memoir and Anthony Kiedis’s Scar Tissue several years before reading The Dirt and The Heroin Diaries). My mum bought me This Is Gonna Hurt by Nikki Sixx for my 20th birthday and not long after that I had bought the Sixx:A.M. soundtracks for the two books.

Nikki Sixx has become a sort of strange inspiration to me. I’ve never been addicted to alcohol or drugs or anything else that can cause destruction in my life. I think it was because he had a shitty childhood and was a bit of a loner when he was younger. And I think it was because he had hit rock bottom after years of substance abuse and crawled his way back to the top and turned his life around. I think it’s because he strives to lead a better life and to become a better person. And I think it’s because he’s been so honest about it all in hopes to help others get their lives around and be better people.

That is inspirational for me – going from rock bottom after being in a destructive lifestyle for so long and crawling back out of it to be a better person and to have a better life. And sharing your story so others can have hope of getting themselves out of similar situations.


Influential Song #7

Yesterdays by Guns ‘N’ Roses is more than just a rock ballad for me (listen to it here). It speaks of yesterday meaning nothing more than memories in the past. That there is more to learn from them.

Yesterday there was so many things I was never told
Now that I’m startin’ to learn I feel I’m growing old

‘Cause yesterday’s got nothin’ for me
Old pictures that I’ll always see
Time just fades the pages in my book of memories

It could also mean that you shouldn’t focus on yesterday and reminisce about what has happened.

Yesterday there was so many things I was never shown
Suddenly this time I found I’m on the streets and I’m all alone

Yesterday’s got nothin’ for me
Old pictures that I’ll always see
I ain’t got time to reminisce old novelties


Better Man

Better Man by Pearl Jam (which you can listen to here) speaks of a woman unable to leave her partner because she’s scared and because she can’t find or thinks she can’t find a better man than the one she’s with. She’s convincing herself of why she’s in love with him and why she’s staying with him.

Talkin’ to herself, there’s no one else who needs to know…
She tells herself, oh…
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along…
Swears she knew it, now she swears he’s gone

She lies and says she’s in love with him, can’t find a better man…
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can’t find a better man…
She lies and says she still loves him, can’t find a better man…
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can’t find a better man…

She loved him, yeah… she don’t want to leave this way
She feeds him, yeah… that’s why she’ll be back again

Can’t find a better man
Can’t find a better man
Can’t find a better man
Can’t find a better… man…

I’ve had points in my life where I’ve wondered if there’s a better man out there for me. That’s the part I connected with the most in regards to the song – the wondering about the possibilities.

Of course I’m content and happy with the life I have now.


Influential Song #6

Another influential/favourite song of mine is Paradise City by Guns ‘N’ Roses (you can listen to it here). G’N’R had been one of my most favourite bands since I was about sixteen.

I can’t tell you why exactly this is one of my favourite songs. Maybe it’s the guitar riffs? Or maybe it was the song that somehow told me that things will be better and that there are better places than the high school I went to at the time and the small town I was living in at the time too. I was at my angry, angsty, rebellious (?) teenage stage and I guess Guns ‘N’ Roses gave me something to focus on at the time. You can hear the attitude coming off duff, Slash, Izzy, Axl and Steven in this song. I guess I kind of changed my attitude a little to be similar to what I thought theirs was like at the time (you have to remember this was before I read the memoirs written by Slash, Steven and Duff and before I read Reckless Road by Marc Canter and found out more about them). Another reason I listened to them was because no one else in my class listened to them and I wanted to listen to something more meaningful and different to what everyone else was listening to.

Take me down
To the paradise city
Where the grass is green
And the girls are pretty
Take me home

Rags to riches or so they say
Ya gotta-keep pushin’
for the fortune and fame
It’s all a gamble
When it’s just a game
Ya treat it like a capital crime
Everybody’s doin’ their time


Music Therapy

Music blared loudly. Metallica. No idea which Metallica song it was. And no idea how one could listen to music that loudly. Surely one would go deaf after a while.

Funny how therapeutic music is to people. Funny how music hits emotions, memories, situations better than other forms of therapy. Funny how people identify with music on a completely different level to everything else. Funny how a song explains something so perfectly for someone who can’t put it into words themselves. Funny how music calms people or make them feel things they don’t necessarily want to feel. Funny how people how people have different songs associated with different memories or people.


Gotta Get It Right/Let’s Go

I can’t tell you how much I enjoy listening to Sixx:A.M. (and yes, I am listening to one of their albums – it’s Modern Vintage if you wanted to know, hence the title and no, I will not stop writing about them anytime soon).

It all started with Tumblr. I set up a Tumblr account when I was around 18. A lot of people I followed listened to old school heavy metal and some of them got me onto Motley Crue (which was the first concert I went to the year after. I have been listening to Guns N’ Roses for years and I still haven’t been to one of their concerts. I found out the day I moved towns they had a concert and I had no money or time to go see them so I wasn’t too happy. But Motley Crue put on a good show so I was really happy about that).

Someone recommended reading the Crue’s The Dirt memoir. After that, I went on to read Nikki Sixx’s The Heroin Diaries and Mum got me This Is Gonna Hurt for my birthday not long after it was released – good thing my birthday was a few weeks after the release date of the book hahaha. I have read Tommy Lee and Vince Neil’s memoirs (I still need to buy Vince’s book since I don’t have that one and I can’t wait till Mick Mars writes his own memoir).

I was moved by Nikki Sixx’s recollections of being a junkie in The Heroin Diaries and what he had to say about life, people and beauty in This Is Gonna Hurt. And then I got the soundtracks to the books Sixx:A.M. released. I don’t know what it was about the music but I connected to it straight away. (I connected to the early albums Motley Crue released but I think that’s a different story.) The songs were so honest and raw and catchy (at least in terms of Modern Vintage – there’s so many catchy songs on that album). Even the books are honest and raw.

Nikki Sixx is a very insightful person. This is probably why I have become insightful about me as a person and about my life. I don’t think I would have started to take a hard look at myself if I hadn’t read The Heroin Diaries and This Is Gonna Hurt. I can change my life and get out of bad situations poor choices and judgements got me into. I can change myself if I can put my mind to it. I don’t have to have all the bad things in my life running or ruining it. This gave me a way to channel all that angst and anger into doing something productive.

Nikki Sixx and Sixx:A.M. have also inspired and motivated some of my creativeness. I listen to their music a lot when I write because it helps me get into some of the characters heads due to the pain that the characters are going through match the songs that I am listening to.


Influential Song #5

My next influential song is P!nk’s Try from The Truth About Love album (listen to it here). The other half and I had split up a couple of times in the fist fourteen months we were together (long story that I don’t particularly want to get into but it ties in with why I want to be a better person). The second time we had broken up for a short period this song had came out and I connected with it straight away. I don’t know if it was because we had temporarily broken up at the time or if I’m just a soppy romantic.

Funny how the heart can be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy?
Even when it’s not right

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone’s bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn’t mean you’re gonna die
You’ve gotta get up and try, and try, and try
Gotta get up and try, and try, and try
You gotta get up and try, and try, and try


Influential Song #4

Okay, so I don’t consider myself a My Chemical Romance fan, but I do like some of their songs from their The Black Parade album. This album was one of my sisters’ favourite albums when she was about thirteen or fourteen (which is around the time the album came out) and she used to play it constantly. I don’t know what it is about Disenchanted specifically (you can hear it here) but I think it may explain some of the feelings I’ve had in the past twelve months.

Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene.

It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, “you won’t feel a thing”
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting

Yeah yeah, oh

If I’m so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I’m gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You’re just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I’m wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We’ll show ’em what we all mean.

Yeah yeah, oh

If I’m so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter long after I’m gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You’re just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I’m wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay

Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah

You’re just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I’m wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya, come on

You’re just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I’m wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

At all, at all, at all, at all


Influential Song #3

And influential song number three is yet another SIXX:A.M. song. SIXX:A.M. is definitely a favourite band of mine. The song in question is Van Nuys (you can listen to it here) and it is from The Heroin Diaries, which is the soundtrack to Nikki Sixx’s The Heroin Diaries book.

I don’t want to die out here in the valley
Waiting for my luck to change
And I just want my dad to know
That I finally made it…

Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets sold

I don’t want to die out here in the valley
You don’t have to lie,
I know that’s what I’ll do
I don’t want my mom to know
That I never loved my life
And I sold my soul

Nikki Sixx’s lyrics are so honest which is most likely why I connect with all the SIXX:A.M. songs that I love.


Influential Song #2

So my next influential song is another song from SIXX:A.M.’s This Is Gonna Hurt album (it’s just full of inspiring and good songs). The song is Oh My God and I can’t pinpoint why this is such a influential song (you can listen to it here). I don’t know if it’s because it’s about people who can’t help their circumstances and other “better off” people looking down at them/completely ignoring them and not offering some sort of assistance. There is something there in the song I just connect with.

She was born at 6 a.m.
On New Year’s Day
In an alley right at the heart
Of where the homeless children play

And the truth is that we will never
Even know her name
‘Cause as long as we can fill our glasses up
We will look the other way

And it’s not that far from here
To New Orleans
Where the seemingly forgotten people
Are still foreclosing on their dreams

And we’d just as soon keep on staring
At the TV screen
While this world, she bleeds to death
Like some romantic end to a movie

Oh my God, this is insane
How’d it get like this or has it always been this way?
Oh my God, I’m so ashamed
When we try to close our eyes and make this go away